The painful memories that she had been suppressing flooded through her.
The memories which she had carefully and persistently made herself forget
was now filling her mind,reminding her of who she once was and who she really is.
The person that she had tried so hard to hide was emerging again,
crumbling the mask that she had been hiding behind.
After the neverending taunts and snide remarks which made her feel ugly and worthless,
she had created a whole new identity,
breaking away from her true self to be someone she was not.
She wanted to be someone who everyone loved, who everyone looked up to.
She yearned to be the girl that everyone took notice of.
Slowly, she reinvented herself - she became what she thought was the perfect person.
She made herself study hard and slogged through endless late nights
to do well in school.
She forgot her shyness and forced herself to be loud, never shy, and laughed all the time.
She became someone she was not.
She built walls around her that no one could penetrate.
She never told anyone of her true feelings, of how she really felt inside.
She always pretended to be happy and optimistic.
She never looked for love because inside,
she knew that she would never be good enough for anyone
- no one would ever love her for who she really is.
Everytime someone got too close,
she would quickly retreat and build even thicker walls around herself.
She would never let her heart be broken
by hateful bitter words again.
But now, with fresh memories of the times
she repeatedly got hurt,
she will hide no more.
She will not be that person she was not to please anyone again.
She will be herself again.