sigh.

i have no internet and since my laptop
is so crap im thinking of buying a new one
but i have absolutely no extra money
and i'm finding a job but it's so difficult!

sigh ):

my friends are awesome though.

came back on fri and spent the whole weekend
up in the north coast near the beach
just relaxing and lots of NI sightseeing!

and now im back in belfast being
cooked a steak dinner by natalie-
im loving being back (:

money troubles- sigh.

on the upside, cas is coming soon
and im prolly flying over to see her yay!

im back.

after a horrific flight involving terrible
food i ate the day before- it was not good.
recuperated in London
(thank God for great public toilets!)
and was back in Belfast yday and already
had a get together so i got to see everyone
once i came back!! (:

so yes- i'm spending this weekend with the housemates
and finally getting a summer holiday!
(:

photos and updates soon.

my last day in Nepal!

it was really quite sad today,

i got a LOT of cards and they were very sweet.

im really going to miss nepal but

im super looking forward to flying back also!

and the bad thing is,

i feel absolutely horrible now-

i think i'm having a fever/the start of stomach upsets or something-

very bad timing ):

pray!

this morning, i checked my fb account

and i got tagged in an AWESOME photo!

which is 15 years old ):

guess which one i am!

(yes, i was the tallest even then)

and loads of people were tagged and

everyone seems to remember one another

but i have no recollection of kindergarten at all!

and boy, do my classmates have awesome memories,

cause one remembers having a crush on me

and i apparently kissed another.

and i've always thought i was a really

goodytwoshoes kinda girl when i was younger!

my love life has really gone downhill huh.

i am having a terrible time deciding

which of my stuff to keep and which to give away.

):

i keep looking at these clothes that i will probably

never wear again and a small voice keeps going

'but- i might want to wear that someday

when the sun finally comes out in belfast!'

did my last sightseeing thing today at Bhaktapur,

this ancient city where people still live in

houses built hundreds of years ago

(it's a UNESCO heritage site)

and it was really like stepping into a different world,

cause saturday is their washing day (as in clothes AND body)

so everyone was out doing things the old fashioned way

in their really old beautiful houses,

it really felt like i stepped back in time!

the only terrible thing was that on the way back

it started raining crazily and the road back home

is basically a two-way mud path,

it was like driving in a mud pit!

(not that i know how that actually feels like)

almost got knocked over by a bus,

and i had a terribly awkward conversation

with this slimy Nepali guy- they are awfully staightforward!

that's one thing i won't be missing

(the men here striking up a conversation-

i get too distrustful and give monosyllabic answers)

plus the stares ):

i really hate the stares.

when i wear my normal western clothes

and get on a bus- everyone turns around and

proceeds to spend their whole journey looking

at me- and not with a nice expression,

i feel like the monkey at the zoo all the time.

and the worst thing is when i finally get to

blend in wearing my kurtasuruwal and

i have to open my mouth to talk to the bus conductor-

then my disguise shatters and the stares are worse than ever!

my last Sunday tomorrow!

man this is depressing.

im writing notes to my older classes-

you know, as a goodbye gift kinda thing

and i've been reflecting over the past two months

and it's getting quite emotional
):

i dont like to think that i'd probably

never see these awesome kids again.

it's like last summer all over again-

except i'll never get to hear from them

cause they can't get email and sending letters

to the UK is probably too expensive.

argh.

i had the loveliest day yesterday,

it was a public holiday so i decided to bring

the older ones for a roadtrip to this giant park

and i've decided i'm never going to be one of

those parents who volunteer to chaperone their

children's school trips.

it was REALLY difficult getting everyone to stick together,

and there were only 10 of them!

even then, there was only one boy and he was

running all over the place going crazy (:

but it was really nice cause so many of them

haven't really been out of Koteshwor,

which is really busy and dirty and muddy

and on the way there, they just kept going

'miss look at this! look at that tree!

look at this river!'

it was a lot of fun, but also quite sad.

i mean, i dont know how i can help.

yeah, i'm spending some of my time with these kids,

but how do i help beyond that?

how do i make sure they continue to go to school

and not have to dropout because their parents

can't afford to pay for school anymore?

how do i help in ensuring they grow up to

have a good life with equal opportunities as everyone else?

i'm in a very messed up state of mind right now.

):

only 4 days left.

i'm going to really miss this crazy place.

i was wrong.

setting papers isn't the hard part-

marking them is!!!

the worst thing is that the teacher lost

ALL my answers so i have no idea what the

right answers are- i'm very crabby at the minute ):

grrrr.

im back in Nepal!

i really dont understand why my luggage is almost

double the weight of what i brought back

and i haven't really gone shopping at all!

):

yeah- it was NOT fun lugging all that to school

and then all the way back home, but i made it!

i almost didn't make it back cause the line was so

incredibly long at KLIA but thankfully this airportman

told me to go to this particular counter and

i jumped like 80 people in the queue! (sorry!)

and because there were only 4 women on the flight,

i got my own row again, it was brilliant!

i think most of the people on the flight were

Nepalis going home after working in KL,

the perceived 'land of opportunities' or something

cause everyone brought home a TV

(which was better than ours at home)

and it really looked like our flight was going to

a Hell's Angels convention or something cause

half of the flight were wearing leather jackets

and leather boots- in this weather!

another 10 days in Nepal, then back to UK-

i am so very excited to start uni again (:

so, i got my flight postponed to Monday.

not just cause i flippin love home
but also cause theres been a strike and there's nothing
much i can do back in Kathmandu anyway.

i love home *sigh*
its like finally having a summer holiday
and it's amazing, i've been spending days
lying at home rereading all the harrypotters
(and have now moved on to narnia,
but it really isn't as exciting as HP)
and eating eating eating (:

got my durians yesterday which
i am really happy about since i haven't gotten
to eat durians for 2 years so i can't wait
to have durian breath for days!! :D

i've also been in shopping malls quite a bit
cause i've realised- there really isn't anything
much to do in msia other than BE in shopping malls!
and i met this fella yesterday who knew my name
and everything- i have no idea who he is!
so i had to play along and nod emphatically
and reminisce over school times ):

im returning to belfast in two weeks time,
HOW QUICK IS THAT?!!
im not ready to start 3rd year medicine ):

okay gotta go buy some chopsticks
for the Belfast house now whee!