I'm Riddled With NeedlePricks.

i'm so depressed it's not even funny.
yeah, this is not the
'oh, i'm so lonely so i'm depressed' things.

i just came back from the hospital
because my stomach was really killing me
so i decided to go get it checked even
though i just made an appointment earlier
(where my first Needle was inserted
to give me my Hepatitis vaccination)

so waited another 3 hours there with
the crazy painful stomach cramps
and the nurse tried to take a blood sample,
which i ALWAYS have a problem with.
if you remember, the last time i did this
it took them over 3 hrs, 6 needles n 2 labs
just to get some blood from me
because apparently i have really fine veins.

so i told the nurse and she went
'oh, i'm really good at this..'
but she tried twice and nothing happened.
waited somemore and a doctor came
and it took him twice to FINALLY get it.
so now my arms are bandaged
and everywhere's really sore ):

so blood samples+urine tests later,
i was told that i'm not pregnant (duh!)
and that i most probably am suffering
from Coeliac Disease, but they're gonna
run more tests to confirm this.

and you know what's not funny at all?
Coeliac Disease is a autoimmune genetic disorder
which means it's lifelong, can't be treated,
and that my body is attacking it's own cells.
it's caused by a reaction to....


guess.


.... wheat.
i'm freaking serious.

i'm not allowed to eat anymore bread/cereal.
and if you know me well,
i think you'd know that this is the
WORST thing that can ever happen to me.
i eat cereal 5 times a day right now,
bread every day, and they're my favorite foods.

according to Wikipedia,
"The only effective treatment is
a lifelong gluten-free diet.",
"No medication exists that will prevent damage,
or prevent the body from attacking
the gut when gluten is present.",
and "As the bowel becomes more damaged,
a degree of lactose intolerance may develop."

there's no cure for this.

which means soon, i won't be
able to eat yoghurts as well.
long term problems include infertility,
osteoporosis, and bowel cancer.

it's not confirmed yet but the doctor
is v confident that this is it.

this is serious.

i really don't know what to say.