so I woke up with vivid dreams of America.
and somehow, thoughts of camp have been occupying
a lot of my mind lately.
i miss it so much,
and i really really want to go back.

definitely the happiest three months of my life.
the exuberant smiles on those kids,
the amazing people around me.
i don't think i'll experience such total
contentment and joy in life again in a long time.
(:

but i think God has something else in store.
(i'm still working out the fine details,
but it's going horribly slowly.)

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well im narrowing my list of new years resolution
to one main one- to be content.
i think i need to learn to be content in every situation,
to find joy in stressful periods,
to remind myself that there is so much more than this.

heard a song in church today that
will *hopefully* be a little verse that
i keep in mind throughout all the
interesting twists and turns this year.

All is well, with my soul.
He is God, in control.
I know not all His plans,
but I know I'm in His hand.

JohnnyParks- All is well.

(:

awesome.

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i feel really weird and listless now.
i guess that's why i'm resorting to blogging.
the suddenness of having nothing to do is
hitting me pretty hard and i feel awkward.

i guess i'm not cut out for a jobless life then.
i'm biding my time until tuesday for OSCEs
(where i play doctor for 45 very harrowing minutes)
and then that's exam over!

maybe the listlessness is due to adam's absence,
because i've been spending all my waking time
studying with him for the past week,
it feels like i'm almost codependent on him.
(adam is my housemate btw, not a boyfriend.)

but yay he comes back tonight
and i will have human contact again!

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alrighty, i have to go watch some videos
on how to examine patients now.
excitingness!